Hi. Anyone remember me?

It hasn't been that long, but it was nice while it lasted. I was doing a lot better. Like, no cutting, way fewer suicidal thoughts, oh cool my brain actually seems to work now.

It was nice. It was cool. Granted, life still sucked sometimes and I still pretty much hated myself, but I enjoyed the good things and the bad things didn't take over.

So, I abandoned PC. Sorry. I'm selfish. It was just reminding me of where I used to be and the way I used to think. I just didn't have the impluse to log on.

Well damn it, I think I'm slipping back into "slow sad and sorry mode" So I'm back. For now at least. I'm hoping I'm not reeeally slipping back and it's not reeeally serious.

I've missed lots of you lots. You're amazing people, by the way.