BNLsMOM, how much of ending up in the hospital is because youare actually feeling worse, and how much of it is because you and your hubby are recognizing what is happening and are getting you in before you really hurt yourself nowdays? It can go both ways? I was never hospitalized, but I can tell you there have been plenty of times when I sure as h--- should have been in a straight jacket! All the hush hush did not help me at all.
I know i am being really harsh and straight forward, but I recognize your frustration and your anger. I am totally with you about the weight gain. I was finally switch over from lithium to something else (topamax) and the weight gain stopped. Some doctors don't realize the damage the weight gain does to mood and body and they should be, in this day and age. Please try to talk to them and work this out some other way. I don't hink that going off all meds is really going to help you, when I remember your earlier posts, dear. Remember, this disorder can also play havok with how we remember our episodes. HUGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSS and my best wishes and hopes for a good mom and a fighter.