Thanks to everyone who responded, yesterday would've been way worse had it not been for you guys.

Good news is I DIDN'T SI

bad news is: I realised I eat myself into a coma While I'm a tiny woman, and can afford to eat all the junk my heart desires, this can't be a good sign, it's like I replaced the cutting with the eating
So sweet of you TS, FYI, I wouldn't have received it in the wrong way, thanks for clarifying tho.

I spoke to my mom and brother about my anger, while they didn't understand, they were very compassionate, and went out of their way to try and help me relax...

I don't like scaring / confusing them, but I need support...

Will tell my pdoc about these rages tomorrow, they're suffocating me.

anyway, I didn't mean to write another novel, I just wanted to say thanks and update you guys,