have u seen a therapist for the abuse you suffered? your description of what happened to you is so classic. it happened to me too. i greatly benefited from therapy to learn how to rid myself of the false beliefs i had about myself and others. also how to avoid picking another abusive person by learning the red flags from a person that i didn't recognize before.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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