because im afraid of how certain things that have happened might be classified. especially the on going stuff. some things happened alot and it just cant be this. i dont want it to be. im worried about it. have been from near starting t. when she asked a particular question and i didnt answer. we havent really gone back to the trauma stuff yet. she has backed off.

the more i talk about my past. the more it shatters how ok i really thought it was.