You are welcome, rambling helps a lot. I have done my lot (in Norwegian) and am a lot more content with life now. It is an odd experience, discovering a new perspective on oneself. I did not know there coul be other ways to perceive and act upon the world - no previous experiences or reference to normality (whatever that is).
Starting on meds - did not really want to because psychotropic sounds creepy - made life so much easier.