I have been having a really ahrd time here lately. My group T and I are not only not seeing eye to eye on things, but last Monday night he missed it so big. I feel so useless, and so WRONG. He thought that I was thinking higher of myself than my abuser, and I wanted to tell him, "No you DUMB *****, the problem is I already think I am worthless and you are only solidifying this belief." How can people be so fricking stupid?

I am not sure I am going back there anymore. I struggle. . .constantly. . .with self worth. I don't think I am worth crap. . .I was never treated with any validity or worth, so why on earth would I believe that I am worth anything? Der.

My regular T is "concerned." What the heck exactly does that mean? "Im concerned." Ok, great, you're concerned. Now waht are you going to do to help me with this crap?

Graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I am hating myself right now.