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Originally Posted by ladymacabethadmunsen
Hello.
My first post in THIS forum.
I never believed myself to have any - like i never say "we" i say "me".
I took an online DID test. The basic score to have DID is 30. I got 45.
I did always believe and felt like i do have parts in me. But i knew all my life they were parts of ME!! And also - i do believe this about everybody else!!
Like an "inner child" or i also call this "spirit, oneness, love pure connection with God." I also believe that the movement of the spirit creates the soul - which already is less real then the spirit but...this also has levels in it. Its already more individual to every one.
Anyways as far as my experience (the above is a recent theory of mine) i do know i always had a concept about myself that i can be a good and bad girl etc....the point is i am found doing things i do not remember doing..and my psychologist said "There might be another one inside you that goes and does those things..." when i heard that i felt a moment of recognition
I just read something that someone here posted - about having a protector and another one that SIs - "alters" - i still thinks that they are just CONDITIONS, states of being and not personalities - when we have very radical swings between them and repress - parts of ourself.
Anyways - from the trauma aspect - i do remember a part of me - part of the memories i am feeling like an abused child and part of them...calm feminine and efficient. This has been my "protector" and also - according to the flashbacks - when i was in that state - it helped me to survive. To fight and win....
Well - but you see - i do not feel - yeah i can describe this as "her" - i also have a problem with people calling me a mature woman - i feel like a little young boy! tomboy! And while recalling all the traumatic memories i felt like "her" the mature feminine wise one i have "lost" but i believe this is a repressed part in me! Not a "different personality"! But i understand that since i am not being fully aware of myself....
So this is the situation, more or less. Can this be that i do have the DID?
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We cant verify nor deny any diagnoses here but I am told we can say what it "sounds" like in opinion only.
My opinion is that this sounds like too many things for me to pin point any one thing. having others within can be many different diagnosis's depending on your other symptoms.
if you google your symptoms that you posted here you will receive over 1 million selections with all kinds of medical and mental problems that include your symptoms.
Diagnosing DID is a complex and lengthy process of undergoing many mental and psychiatric tests.
that said PTSD does contain some/many of the same symptoms and problems that the diagnosis of DID carries.
My suggestion print off what you have wrote here and contact your doctors. show them this and they will know what testing procedures you need that will enable them to correctly diagnose you.