((hugs))) I'm sorry you are in such a state... you probably do need to cut back on things where you feel pressure to complete or compete.. but don't take away things you knew you used to like to do... unless there are too many of them. It's ok to slow down, or even stop for a bit, catch up with yourself, allow yourself some quiet time... and not think about going forward but just being. Depression limits what we can do, how much we can take, how we think... don't let it win, but do take care of yourself. (Have you read over the CBT 10 cognitive distortions?)

One step at a time.