 Hey, Cherrios! Re: the ADHD/ADD - Thanks so much for your support. I'm hoping that I can find a Pdoc and/or T soon with the appropriate expertise so I can make some progress in dealing with it better.
I'm soooo glad that you are feeling safe enough to open up a little more, and being more willing to confront the trauma. Just stuffing those intense emotions down inside instead of releasing them creates an ever-enlarging reservoir within that becomes increasingly difficult to hold back. Eventually, the dam will break and the sudden rush of those intense emotions breaking loose can be extremely overwhelming. Best to release the pressure a bit at a time.
I know how incredibly difficult this is for you to do. The thing about PTSD is that to remember the traumatic event is to re-experience it - to actually relive it along with all of the attendant emotions that you were unable to process and express at the time. You lived in one reality prior to the accident and awoke from your coma to a radically altered reality - that in itself had to have been a tremendous shock to your psyche!
Although I know it had to be agonizing, writing that e-mail to your T was an excellent idea and very brave of you. I'm sure it made it a little bit easier for you to express yourself without that feeling of being scrutinized under a microscope - much in the same way as posting here on PC - and without being distracted by trying to decipher the other person's reaction. 
Please let me know how it goes with your T today. I'm excited for you that you are embarking on this new leg of your journey which can only improve the quality of your life, as well as the lives of those around you. It takes courage and determination to confront something this painful, and you have already demonstrated that you possess plenty of both by what you have achieved so far in your physical recovery.
GOOD LUCK!!  Lynn
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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