Thank you ((Fins)) for the kind words - I try my best to be a good mother. I realize not everyone is lucky to have a good support system. I honestly don't think you could have done anything different - in fact what you did was good - it was to save yourself, your niece/nephew. You could only do what your mind was capable of. Doubting yourself or thinking about 'what if's' can't change the past. I hope once you heal, you'll realize that you're a survivor...you're strong and give yourself credit.