hey everyone, I have a couple of questions... I've had eating issues since almost 10 yrs. I've never been in treatment for this and I've only ever told one counslor at my univ. whom I stopped seeing shortly afterwards. I have a variety of reasons why therapy is not an option for me, and even if, I second guess what it is that I want all the time... b/c it's worked so long and b/c this is all I know, or so it seems. this is part of me and I don't know how to let go.

my question though, is this that I used to be bulimic and I had my times of getting better and eating normal etc. but one all those obsessions w/ food are still there, and I don't eat like a "normal" person, I don't binge though anymore (rarely, and if I do it's not on a lot of food) but I tend to purge no matter what I eat (if it's an actual meal) but again much less than I used to, so primarly I restrict and am just occupied w/ the whole thing/my body. My point is, I don't qualify for the diagnosis of bulimia nor anorexia, but this still feels so messed up. Is it bulimirexia? Or an EDNOS? I'm really really lost.......... help, anyone????? Do I even have a problem???