Oh oh oh, sooo can relate! It's like... an inner scream to the universe with no release, yes? Or feeling that you are _beyond_ crying. It hurts... When you said yesterday that you felt worn down?... cathartic things can take a lot of energy. That's ok, they just can. Cut yourself some slack on that, ok? I would say hope you are feeling better, and I do hope that, but also, it seems it's one of those things that comes when it comes, and sometimes it doesn't, but the important thing I wish for you is to be ok with letting it have its rhythm.