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Right now my panic disorder, ADD, and ocd are getting the best of me on top of physical problems (high blood pressure, headaches, carpal tunnel syndrome). I feel like running away where there is no communication with the outside world. A place where there is no triggers and all that matters is me getting better.
It seems to me that everyone around me is more concerned what I need or can do for them. I am talking about family.
Tonight I had a friend offer to drive me home with another friend driving my van. (The headaches leave my head sore and I get dizzy sometimes when driving and have anxiety about driving at night anyway.) I was touched and I really needed that. She knows about my difficulties and she wanted to help. She has enough difficulties herself, but she let me know she was here for me and I know she means it.
I know I am sounding selfish but I just want the panic attacks, the anxiety, the ocd, etc. to stop.
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