thans for the replies.... I wish I could actually believe that this will stop eventually but I have my doubts- and I know I could actively try to stop but I don't think I can on my own, not forever at least. but I do agree that I guess it is possible, it's just that I don't really see the point, as much as I hate that it's part of my life, it's something I can do, something that is mine and I have control over,... and the way I feel at those moments, there is no way out....

why would someone have to involvuntarly committ you though myself? you're not trying to committ suicide, that's not what si is.....