I wake up each morning feeling the same way. I force myself to get up and go to work I have to. I am afraid I'd lose my job. I have so much dept and its just piling on I have family to take care off. How to make you feel better I dont know all I can say is that I was feeling like you discribe but now although I am still crying and still afraid I dont feel that life is not worth living. I dont know when the feeling went as for all this whole year I hve just wanted to fall asleep and not wake up. Could'nt see the point of life. Still don't but the feeling of wanting to die is not there. I am just sick and tired of the feeling of helplessness and worrying.