Caroline,
You wrote,[...if I have...misread your intentions..I apologise...].
Thank you for the apology, for it was not my intention to have a discussion on any of those topics that you suspect.
My overiding concern is that your depression is not going away after what you posted help here for. I wanted to offer you help from my perspective and if you have determined already that you would not appreciate it, even not knowing what it is that we could discuss, then I understand .
But if you find relefe from your depression here on the forum at large, then that is wonderfull. My offer to you for discussion via the PM system was only because what we could have discussed may have been unique to us only and not understood by others. If at any time you would like to continue our discussion, I would welcome it .
Lou