I too wish that we could go back & have things be the way they used to be. But that will never happen. I just have to live in the moment. For instance, my hubby & I had a great sex life until I had my 2nd nervous breakdown almost a year ago. Now we have nothing, partly because I removed myself from him by sleeping in another room. I just started sleeping in our bedroom with him about a week ago. I want to have the same type of relationship with him. I told my T today, and she said that it's going to take some time for this to happen given that I isolated myself from him and from everyone. She told me to be direct with him about my desire to make love again. I wonder if things will ever be the way they used to be. I hate my depression because it took over all my relationships and took away my true inner self!!