I was diagnosed bipolar in Sept of 09- manic & went in the hospital. Then in Jan 2010 went into a depression so deep that I'm still in. I was hospitalized in Feb. for suicidal thoughts. My husband has been with me and pays for all the bills that my depression has brought on. But I isolated myself from him and everyone since Feb. I moved to a different bedroom to sleep better, but I thnk it was more than that too. I finally moved back into our bedroom about a week ago, and today I told him that I want our intimacy back in our lives, and that I loved him and appreciated him and all that he's been through with me and done for me. We had a really big hug and he tightly squeezed me. We kissed. There still is hope for us. Even though I still have anhedonia, I want to make love again. Maybe it will fire up some dopamine in my brain and it will slowly bring us back together. Please pray that we will make it and that these new meds I'm on will help me out of my darkness.