(((turquoisesea)))
Wow, I can relate... I haven't been very good at making friends either since I moved 2 years ago - although the "meetup" groups have at least been an opportunity to get out. Did you ever try those?
It is hard... especially with depression.
I hope you won't be too hard on yourself. I think the best thing to do is just to keep taking care of you. I know it sounds odd but I think this is kind of even more important? It's like... the rest will follow? Idk. I just think that if we focus on taking care of ourselves then as we feel better it won't feel so hard to chat with others and the "getting to know you" stuff...
Sending caring and supportive thoughts your way.
E