That's good.. I'm usually faced with people who are scared of a giant wall of text, but it's a habit of mine to explain and over explain.. I wanna be an author so I guess that's why.

Rachel's ex came on facebook about an hour ago and it sparked more irritance over this issue. I asked him if she had done this before, to someone other than me. He said he thinks she's done this about two other times.

The more I think about it the more it doesn't make sense and the more it doesn't make sense the more I want it to. At the moment that need for it to make sense is getting so high up there that I'm contemplating on letting said friend above to talk to this girl like he wanted to. Such as add the e-mail address and figure out things instead of me doing it. I didn't want it at the time but now.. I dunno. I know it does nothing and I know she won't ever tell me the truth.. but parts of me wants to know what she did with Jesse? Even though looking for him or talking to him (unless he talks to me first???) is against my promise for at a whole nother year, I can't help but wonder..