feeling more and more distant from people. everyone is already complete without me. im not needed. i dont have anything to offer that people want or need. nor do they care. they have what they need. but i dont. but that doesnt matter. theres no point. i hate just watching all the time. i hate having to keep back all the time. i hate the silence. i hate the isolation. i hate the invisibility. i hate having nothing good enough to offer. i hate that i dont matter. i dont exist in the real world where it counts. there must be something wrong with me. wish id learn to just be quiet and happy watching from a distance. where everyone wants me to be. hope this doesnt sound rude. its not meant to be. just what i think and cant understand. i dont seem to be compatible with people.