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Originally Posted by notablackbarbie
*rips off paperbag and tears it into pieces*  WTF am i doing trying to lie?! WTF am i doing trying to be/act normal?! ... |
question what is "normal"?
reading your posts i get the feeling you are trying to find out who you are. that is good. as a child you tried to hide your unhappiness by telling ppl stories rather than the truth. i mean i can see why you were uncomfortable telling the truth then.
now/present- you have learned behaviors from your childhood. the storytelling protected you. so it will take some time to start telling the truth/practice but you can change this behavior.
i think it's good that you are aware of this trait. don't beat yourself up over it...
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