Hi everyone.

I have been having a dream lately that is causing me alot of anxiety. It's making my head feel...........crazy.

Please do not read below this line if you are easily triggered................................................................









My Uncle died almost 2 years ago in March. He was a beautiful, loving, kind, caring, compassionate and generous person. The best person in the world and the best person to have on your side. He was also my God father.

Lately, I have been having these dreams about certain things. I cant recall the entire dream but I do remember parts of them. In one of my dreams, I am in a crowded room. Lots of people are there. It's almost like a party or a formal ball of some sort (weird). As I am looking around the room I see my Uncle standing there with the people in various places. Now even in my dream I know that he is dead but it seems that in my dream I am the only one who see's him. It's weird. I am not afraid of him in my dreams. I am just amazed that he is there. In full form. He looks so real. It's like I can reach out and touch him. But I dont. I dont even walk up to him. I just sit there staring in amazement.

I usually will wake up pretty quickly from this dream. I think I may have had it more then once but I am not sure.


In the other dream. My Uncle's wife has my Uncle's body dug up because there is a machine that could "possibly" bring him back to life. With this machine, it is just a "possibility" not a "guarentee". I can feel myself being so angry and upset in this dream because I dont understand why My Aunt is doing this, knowing that it may not bring him back. Making all of us go through the pain of losing him again.

When I woke up from this dream I was literally sweating. Very anxious.

I dont know why I am having these dreams. Last week on the 9th of November, it was the 1 year anniversary of my grandmothers death. I am not sure if maybe that has triggered something or not. When that day came, last week. I wasnt even exactly sure how I felt about it. I am still not sure. I feel like so much has happened since then. I feel like a life time as passed and other times I feel like it was just so recent.

These dreams are making me very afraid and anxious. I have a great fear of death as I am sure so many of us do. But more then that, the dreams themselves make me feel crazy. Like when I wake up I think, OMG did that really happen and it takes me a while to know that it was in fact, just a dream.

I dont know why I am dreaming this now. I just dont know why.

It's making my head feel very off.