Hi Kimmydawn,
Thanks for understanding. I almost asked last week about what if I felt I needed to call, but I lost my nerve. I don't know about going twice. I would have to pay for all of the 2nd visit. Not so sure I could afford it. You're right though, that would make it feel more doable. I'm afraid to look to closely at all that stuff he's talking about. It feels like I'll slide right down and lose myself if I do more than peek every now and again. Maybe I'll talk to him about the options this week, and see if he has any other suggestions.

Twinks,
I agree with the redirecting - short term only. I like the imagery, Growth Pain, not dying pain. That's good. Makes it positive instead of a negative. That could help a lot.

That is exactly what I keep saying too ~ why go thru all this. It's old and meaningless, and will only make me sad. But I guess you're probably right about the radar. I think it's partly that I don't like the idea of letting him direct things, I don't like to give up control.

I particularly like the last bit about putting things back together. If you don't mind, I believe I'm going to quote you on that next time I see him.

Still don't see you around too much. Things going any better for you?

Sleeps,
How's it going? It really is frustrating as hell when they say that, isn't it. the first time he said it, I just got pissed off. He asked how I was feeling & I said, 'like walking out!" You know what his reply was? That's not a feeling. What are you feeling? What are your emotions? THE NERVE!! Then I think I wanted to hit him over the head ~~ but you're right, I do like him & I know he's making things move in the right direction. It's just hard at times.

You'll all be happy to know that after spending some time punching my pillow this morning, I felt a little better and actually got quite a bit done today. I'm not sure exactly who or what the anger was directed at, (i think my ex-husband must have been in there somewhere ) but it somehow seemed to help.

Take care, all of you, and thanks for helping me. I am feeling better, especially after your kind words. Quay