Troy hon having ptsd from combat or anything other trauma is not a failure! please don't think that way. I know the military trains people to be tough but heck I know enough about combat to know how hard it is to watch people die. You are still tough! please keep your appt wherever it may be. You don't have to talk about it all at one time either. let as much as you can out and save some for another time. Seriously I have seen many vets be helped with therapy. Some VA clinics even have couples therapy to help the spouses understand. if you would like I can send you my number and talk to your wife. I have done alot of that myself.