What I think is.. If I had no boyfriend, no guy she could get to, no one she knew of that I liked, we would be fine. She always gets so.. agressive when it comes to guys and me. And the thing is was that before she started trying to tear Jesse and I apart and before she tried to get with Steven and those months we first met and those months between guys, we had it great.

I mentioned this in a previous post, but when we had it good we had it great. We would talk for hours on end, laughing so much. We were two peices of a puzzle that fit perfectly at the time. We liked the same things and thought the same things and we used to go on about how our friendship was better than anything else in the world. We used to be (what someone had said before) lovers without the romance. She would phone me when I was crying and wouldn't leave until I stopped..

She didn't seem to be a stalker, crazy, obsessive person.. she seemed real and genuine.. and I miss this friend with every part of my whole entire body, but I resent the toxic being she has become.. It's so hard to accept her this way. Hard to tell myself that this is who she really is.. and realize that she's not going to change because there is something wrong with her..