I do love my wife. I'm sure part of me always will. She refuses to go to therapy. I feel as though, I have tried my best to make her happy. I have changed in many ways. I've never left her. I just don't think I have anything in me any more. How can I trust someone who promises that she is going to be committed to our relationship and to making it work. I can't do this alone. I can't make someone change. She seems to think she is going to be happier on her own. The first couple of times it hurt so much when we separated. This time, I'm so numb to it that I usually don't feel a lot of anything. I guess I want to rediscover who I was. She is probably doing me a favor. It is toxic for me to have someone who seems to take out her emotional pain on me by criticizing so many things.