Thanks, everyone...
I could write them a letter, but I feel like that's somehow cheating. Like, I should be able to say what I need to say. Does that make sense? And I guess the part that I'm the most worried about is the fact that I've never told them when I felt depressed. Now I have to suddenly say, "So, by the way, this has been going on for months and months..." and I'm sure they don't realize how much trouble I have talking about things.

I don't want to think about this, but I keep going around in circles. I wish. my brain. would shut up already.