It started just before I was in kindergarten. My parents took me to the eye doctor and found out my eyesight was very bad. I started wearing "coke bottle' glasses at age 4. I was constantly made fun of and got beat up numerous times. I never felt like I fit anywhere. The worst started in about 7th grade. My gym teacher made me very anxious around her. Whenever she was in the room or I saw her anywhere...I became absolutely frozen inside. I was so afraid to do anything in front of her.....I started feeling like I was constantly being watched. The same thing has happened over and over again throughout my life with many different situations and people. That 7th grade year was also the year when suicide thoghts began. I have been hospitalized over 30 times for overdosing on meds and been placed in psychiatric wards at least 26 times throughout my lifetime. I have a current situation right now that whenever I go to this certain place and this person is there, I feel like people are constantly watching me. If I try to talk to this person that I respect very much I almost go into an anxiety attack. My body starts shaking/trembling with fear of rejection or judgement. Does anyone else here deal with things or even know what I am talking about?