Hi vulgerlove, I'm sorry that your relationship with your father is not working Often when we have been rejected by our parents we try to SHOW THEM that in fact (like in your case) we can kill a deer, or whatever it is that we try to prove to our parents to hopefully be shown some love and affection. Unfortunately, in most cases it doesn't work that way. I believe what we're really shooting, is ourselves in the foot! Trust me, it will not work, I've tried to do many things to get the attention I so much deserve, but parents are not opened to it. In my case, they're both sick.... so what is there to do? What's the solution? To me, it is therapy... accepting that the only one who will love ME unconditionally is myself (besides kids and hubby) and that I need to stop looking for the love that is not there (from parents). I need to find out what I really want to do, not what I should do to please others... I am not putting more energy into trying to get a good relationship with parents anymore. I'm just going to be here for me and those that I KNOW love me. Why shoot yourself in the foot? *hugs*
//hazeleyes