I think it is just fine to say that. I sometimes say the wrong things too, so I try to be careful. A lot of my old posts are really embarrassing for me, so I just try not to think about them or look at them. I have wrestled with the urge to delete my account a few times, but I'm glad that I haven't. It's good to have a record of how things really happened so that I can't distort them in my mind and make things out to be worse (or better) than they really were.

I'm sorry that things are so awkward with your T. Even though T's can be good people, sometimes that doesn't translate into a good T-client connection and that can be hard to deal with.

At least for me, if T was an awful person, I wouldn't feel so bad about disappointing her or making mistakes, because then I wouldn't mind cutting her off completely. To keep up a good front for people who I like is stressful, especially if it is someone who is supposed to be seeing all of my bad points, because then I have to simultaneously reveal all my weaknesses while at the same time maintaining decorum and keeping that person's respect. No small feat.

Anyways, I know I just go on and on. Short version: I sympathize.