New here and im just trying to cope with my childhood s/a everyone sweeps it under the rug especially my mother. this led me down a path if destruction and unhealthy coping mechanism sighs i just want to wake up and forget to be able to breathe again to not fake a smile and play little miss perfect im 21 im youthful i shld b so having the time of my life. Im a successful college student likeable but deep down inside i hate myself and im not happy. I still feel like im that teenager all over again reliving every event day after day and for my mom to speak of it as a incident which needs to add a s at the end of that. Hopefully being here will make me feel better i hope.