Another day, urge is still there! But, I didn't. Yeah. Bit my nails down to nothing.

Its all stress. Mostly financial. I'm supporting 3 kids with absolutely no help from my ex. He says "I can't afford to give you child support", but he pays cash for a camero! While my car sits at the shop because I don't have the $ to get it fixed. Everything I make goes to feeding kids. I have neglected my student loan. And other things.

Yeah, I'm angry. I'm frustrated. Overwhelmed.

I don't want to go to social services but going to have to. I do work. I have a good job for where I live. It's year around with benefits. But, it is just not enough. I hate the idea of asking for assistance. But, I don't see a choice at this time. At least until he starts paying support.

Thanks. I'm going to try and get some sleep.