Wow I cant thank you enough for sharing. I'm a therapist and I struggle with chronic depression and suicide almost daily... Now most people are going to judge and say how could I possible be a therapist and even provide help for people considering what I feel on a daily basis. Please don't judge me, I know boundaries and have dealt with these symptoms for long enough that I guess they are a part of me but never let it interfere with my patient therapy, plus my sessions are taped for supervision so if anyone had a clue to how I felt on the inside they surely wouldn't be able to tell at work. A lot of us just do what we have to do tom survive day to day and it shouldn't be that way but you can't tell society ommm I'm going to take a brake now cause I feel suicidal and chronically depressed ... Where getting out of bed feels almost impossible.

Thanks for letting me share and go on with my loose associations