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cutbuddie · 02:11 AM

I'm not sure how to put this because I have a horrible memory, but for as long as I can remember I've had this voice in my head. For the longest time it's been real quiet, on a come and go basis. The voice tells me to do things, to myself.

I can't even say what it says because it won't let me

But now all of a sudden it just became the only thing I can hear. When I'm not distracted.
I was in the city today, out in the public. Something I'm not used to because I live in the country. But it was all I could hear, no matter what I tried. My eyes would start to swell but I tried my hardest not to cry. I felt like I couldn't breathe. That something what stopping it, that my mind was. I felt weak, like I was going to feint. All I wanted to do was go home, to go some place I knew, some place safe. I desperately needed it. But I held off until me and my friend got back to her house and my dad was on his way.
My dad told my sister and she texted me asking me what was going on. She thinks we should switch rooms for a week, to see it anything changes. I have a sense that it's because I told my family about this spirit of a little boy in my room, although I can't see it, I can feel it. But I don't understand why she would think changing rooms would change the voice.
I'm trying my hardest to fight it but it's starting to take over my body.

I just wish I could tell someone what it wants me to do. All the things it makes me see. How horrible it's gotten. How terrified I really am. How much I just want to latch onto my dad and just cry because he always made me feel safe by just having his arms around me.

I'm only 15, how could this be happening to me??