Thank you all for your thoughts. I do indeed intend to be extremely busy in these upcoming weeks... and that is part of what scares me. I'm here for my OB/GYN rotation for school and it's looking like it's going to be very hard and a lot of work. I'm not sure if I will be able to keep up with it all. So not only am I homesick, but I am quite overwhelmed.

Although I know people here, that doesn't mean that I'm very close to them. I'm not very good at making friends, but I have lots of friendly acquaintances, if that makes any sense. There are really only one or two people I would feel comfortable hanging out with...

I can communicate with my pdoc via email, but he's really just the medicine man. I don't know how helpful he'd be if I were to write and tell him I'm homesick and really intimidated by my schoolwork. Unfortunately, I don't have an email address for my psychologist and our last/farewell appointment was canceled (because his father passed away unexpectedly). So aside from calling his office, I don't have any resources or good way of contacting him... and he's the one I'd really want to talk to.

Although I hate to do it, maybe I need to take more klonopin for a while until I settle down a bit. I hate relying on drugs to get me through hard times, but I don't know what else to do.

I feel like I need to just march onward with faith that it will all be okay.