I'm still struggling with trying to compartmentalize everything. I rented this book from the library called "Too good to leave, too bad to stay" and it takes you through about 40 steps and diagnostic traits to look at to determine whether there is enough basis to stay and work on it.

The other day I was still determined to get the hell outta dodge but then one of my friends made a really good point. I trust him more than I have ever trusted anyone, and I know he feels the same way about me. It is simply communicating, which is probably the most common problem in relationships anyways. She said that if I really trust him as much as I say I do then I HAVE to try. I have never been in a relationship where there wasn't at least a little doubt from my end. And the fact that I know for a fact that he would never cheat on me, hit me or do anything to that magnitude means that there must be SOMETHING there.

Hopefully this book will help me clarify some issues. Because if I'm mulling over whether to leave or not and he really is trying then I'm not even letting him get a second chance. I'm just distancing myself and picking fights without actually allowing him to work on his issues.

Cause don't get me wrong, I know I have my own issues. Hopefully I can find some direction and stop being so damn confused about everything.