Yeah. I am going to get a deer that weighs 501 lbs. the record. I thought to have given up a long time ago on my dad and yet still a part of me never shall. I suppose that wil never go away.

I talked my mom today and she agrees with him and does not excuse his behavior. Just is the silent observer in life. She has problems too. I sometimes wonder how the two of them posibly found one another.

I can't wait to shoot a deer! I hope I do get a big buck. In fact for the next year I am going to visualize that buck and then come next November, he will be ready for me. "Man can create anything in which he can imagine"

Parents are important, I worry about my own daughter? I hope to never discourage her like my dad....ouch..