Well, later today, actually, since it's after midnight....

I think I feel...apprehensive. We have a 90 minute appointment scheduled. I feel like I've finally put away those big yucky feelings from last week, and going there and facing them again feels like....ack. I know that's how I will heal. But still.

I knitted T some socks. Today is my three year therapy anniversary, and T's birthday is around this time, so I usually give him something small. I don't know if I will give them to him. I feel scared.

Just. Blah.

I want it to be okay. I think T and I will make it okay. And I think it will hurt getting there