I hear you. When I am awake I can't stay awake and when I am asleep I can't sleep.

If it were at all possible I would simply sleep when my body was ready to and do things whenever I was more awake but the world doesn't run on that schedule.

So it goes back to what I was saying know your limitations and try and find a way to keep things within those boundaries.

@widget - how much does your parents know about mental disorders/mood disorders?

Also@widget - also do not ignore your parents either. Perhaps before you think a decision through to conclusion you should ask them to help you sort it out and tell them what you are thinking and hear what they say. If they offer something that is conflicting with your illness explain to them what factors they are missing.

I would venture to say they want what is best for you. And maybe they are being more realistic than you give them credit for at times.