My one pdoc mentioned it to me (But in hindsight, it appears as if she was quite haphazard, as she also used to change my meds rapidly, and I didn't know any better other than to complain when I wasn't seeing results)

I discussed it with my T the other day (I see her weekly, so it's easier to discuss my depression and suicidal thoughts with her, rather than wait a month or more until I see my pdoc) and she also works in a local hospital. She said ECT was used here as a last resort, after 2 years of treatment resistant depression had been experienced. That makes me a bit worried. Why would one need to wait and go through such a long episode?
My moods are all over the place, mostly in a depressed state. And I really battle, especially when they get deep and suicidal.

But she's also concerned about the memory loss, and said that I'd probably not be able to keep a job as demanding as mine is now. So things like that make me a bit anxious