I refound neopets. I noticed they finally let u retreive passwords for multipule accounts so I found all my old ones, deleted, and started anew. I used to be really into games all over the web. I used to have multiple good accounts on just about everything. I used to like Cartoon Network a lot but that was more when they had shows I knew. Now they really only have three on there and their games I've played about 100 times. Thanks for the suggestion though, it reminded me of a lot of old sites I've abandoned!

I'm starting to feel better over all I think. The anixiety went down as I've been just obsessing in these games and distractions. I suppose I was just freaking out over all the mixed signals I was getting from Rachel and Jesse. I mean she tries to re-add me and inside I start freaking out cause I don't know what that means; if she only wanted to mess with me or she had a genuine reason. Last time I spoke to Jesse he said he missed me and thought of me as his friend but would treat me like crap which made me angry and confused as I didn't understand anything. Words and actions never made sense with those two.. It plays on my emotions and makes me do stuff I wouldn't normally want to.