thx for this.
it can be hard.

i find that paying lots of attention to the here and now..everytime, all the time. starting with just as much as i could manage from minutes to tens of minutes and so on... whereever and what ever now is. helps. it keeps my attention and focus.

and relaxation

and for the action. i might start it. then my head yells out 'you dont want to do this.' 'stop' and i jump up across the room. do a sudden big movement.

or i change the action to a nice soothing action. sooth me. that is what my body wants. it wants contact. it wants soothing. just the message got wrong on the way throuhg, during transmission.

just my thoughts.