I mean this is the Monday after one of the biggest weekends of my music career. It's not everyday one opens for a 3 time grammy award winning artist. Even though after the concert I had to go to Walmart to buy dog food. lol

But I find myself with unbearable pain this morning. I am saddened to the core and I dont know if it's my depression or just general saddness.

People come in and out of our lives like the winter wheat. One day it's all fresh and new and joyful. The next, it's gone.

In the past several days, I lost 3 signifigant people from my life. One who shouldnt be, was my doctor. (he was a good friend of the family) and now he has left, moved to California for other work.

My Pastor also left. He moved to Indiana for other work.

And in the worst moment, I found out that I am dead to my own Mother.

I rejoice in the friends that remain, but I find myself wondering when they will be gone too.
Over the years I have known so many wonderful people, and some have some have died, others just faded away with time.

I think cutting myself off from the world, living as a hermit, would be the least painful way to live.