i just went to see a new therapist today. i've tried therapy before but i never went for long and it was never helpful. i searched all over to find someone who i think will actually help me. she has a lot of experience with DID, so i think she will be able to help me with the struggles i have with my partner and the ways i don't deal well with my own issues. i hope this time it works out. i'm nervous. change is hard. i don't do well with creating or maintaining boundaries. i'm a caretaker. having to deal with this is going to be hard. i know i need help. i'm scared of change. i am nervous about how this will affect my partner too. my new therapist said she wants to be in touch with my partner's T too. i wonder how all the work in therapy will affect our relationship. oh man, this is gonna be hard.