I don't know if we could have fixed anything. I guess I just mean we can't fix how the session went. I got the 10 minutes, and that was it, you know?

I did realize one thing during the 10 minutes. I realized that I really believe that the things that happened to me happened to me because of ME, because I'm bad, because I caused it. And watching the Oprah show and seeing the 200 men who had been abused, and hearing their stories - and how THEY thought THEY caused it, they were bad...I realized that we can't ALL be bad, and ALL be the cause, you know?

And I realized that I don't know which is worse, honestly....thinking it happened because I'm bad, or thinking it just happened?

I guess that's why I wish we had more than 10 minutes. We just didn't have enough time for me to work through it, and I'm left with a bunch of spiraly loose ends.