When I started that thread some months ago about wanting to drive past my Ts house, many of you disapproved and said it was crossing boundaries. I didn't do it then; I looked at her house on Google Earth street view instead. I hadn't thought about it since then.

Last night when I was reading over some of my Ts emails to me, I saw the directions I had printed. I told myself that I was going to drive by her house today. I didn't hesitate about doing it.

I felt a little guilty because it is off on side streets in an area I've never been to. But I kept going. The Google Earth photo I think was the house next door to hers anyway.

So, I'm not too worried what she will think. Of course I'm going to tell her. I won't do it again; I think I wanted to be close to her while she is away. Another reason is to see if she lived in a huge, expensive house since I know she and her H make a good living. I was glad to see her house was nice, like she is, but not too expensive looking, at least from the outside.

I know I have to talk about it in my session. My Self, who is supposed to take care of my parts, did not object to what I did. I don't know what that means.

This therapy is so different from my others, except for my very first T. I always wanted to let myself feel what I always kept inside, and that's what I'm doing. It's like I'm a 2 year old and a teenager at the same time, trying to find myself and become independent. I've got to let T see all of my needs. Driving by her house didn't seem like a big deal to me. It seemed okay. Is that weird?