The ocd isn't letting me get any decent rest. I am taking more meds. I really, really want to have control of my mind. This checking and double-checking makes me feel like I am failing a test. I don't read something once but over and over. If it is something that seems to hit a nerve, I read it over and over then get up and then get back on the computer and start again. I even started deleting the history, but then I get back on and hunt the information again and the cycle starts over again. I worry about everything. When I am feeling okay, it seems that my mind wants me to have a panic attack and starts thinking about things and then I get on the computer and read and reread. It is like I am doing a research paper. I am trying to limit my computer time to break the habit. I know I had a better control on the thoughts before I got internet in my home. The internet makes information so accessible. When I was growing up, I would walk constantly trying to walk away the thoughts and when I got a bike, I would ride and try to ride away the thoughts. In school, I put everything into my classes and was an honor student. My mind won't relax. YUGH.