Again I want to emphasize the obvious that I am no expert but similar to the sentiments of the others your problem is not with the not having a sex life. That can happen in a repaired and somewhat healthy readjustment.

You endured unspeakable and unthinkable pain. You have nothing to be ashamed of but the fact is people who have been victims do feel shame and find it hard to resolve to the extent possible.

But you can do it! I would strongly suggest that you dedicate yourself to healing as much as possible before you concern yourself with the other things. Those things have a way of working themselves out.

It may help you to first understand that those acts that were perpetrated upon you are demonic and not even human and are a result of a evil spirit prevalent in this world we live. There is nothing normal about it and no excuse for it. You did nothing to bring it on. Of course you already know this but it may be you have yet to accept it as the absolute truth.